February Feature: Candice McGruder

First off, let me begin by stating that what I am about to say is alsohttps://www.blogger.com/null aimed at myself, along with the rest of the body of Christ. I, like every single believer, needs to really, really examine themselves to make sure that they are still in the faith. 2 Corinthians 13:5

So, around 5 o’clock this morning, The Holy Spirit beckoned me to the throne of grace to pray. Now, I love to pray, I really do. I do it all the time, in fact. I pray daily because the Word tells us to Ephesians 6:18, and, I find that when I don’t, I become a mean little… Grinch? Yeah, I will use that word, Grinch. I find that when I do not press into the presence of God daily, throughout that day, I act extremely Grinchy. 

Now, before you nominate me for sainthood, you should inquire about the content of my prayers. That information is very vital to the rest of this piece. The content of my prayers are less centered around what the bible says to pray about, and more around… well, me. I pray for myself, I pray for my family, I pray for my daily needs, I pray for my friends, I pray for my wants, I pray for my Pastor, I pray for my bills to be paid, I pray for my Sorority, I pray for what Myself will eat; you see the trend here?  I am, like many American believers, very concerned about MY wellbeing, MY family, MY friends. I am very concerned with MYself.  So, when God woke me up to pray at 5:00 AM, I went down my check list of things to pray for and wondered why God woke me up an hour and a half before I needed to be awake. I was concerned about MY lack of sleep for MY job that day.  Silly willy Candice.

While at work, I was listening to my Jonathan McReynolds Pandora station, and like always, it was bomb. However, I began to notice a trend with the songs that were playing. They were playing songs about praying. Like, I am so serious. Nearly every song that played, was a song about praying. But not just regular, Candice type praying, no, but interceding.

DEFINTION BREAK: For those who don’t know the correct definition of interceding, please allow me to enlighten you. To intercede means to act or interpose in behalf of someone in difficulty or trouble, as by pleading or petition. I got this definition straight from dictionary.com.

I mean left and right, songs about intercession. William Murphy’s song called “I Prayed for You” , Yolanda Adams “Be Blessed” (which talks about praying for another person to be blessed). But, the song that really spoke to me was not really a song at all, but a plead from William McDowell. It was the Interlude to his song “Intercession”, and boy did it speak to me. In it, he is pleading with believers to set aside ourselves and to pray for the nations. He mentions how it takes faith not worry about our needs, but the needs of others. Faith, the kind that the Lilies of the field have that allows them to neither toil nor spin over what they will wear, and yet are dressed better than Solomon. Matthew 6:28-34

That is so real, beloved. SO super real. We as believers know that God is everything we need. In many passages of scripture He implores us not to worry, that we will be just fine. I know I am not very old, I am actually very young, but I have been walking with The Lord for quite some time, and I have yet to go hungry, yet to not have any clothes on my back, and yet to not have a place to lay my head. God has taken care of me, before I even knew to ask Him to! So why beloved, why, do we stress out, and worry about those things? Why?

With all that poverty that was around me growing up, I still ate, even if it was peas that my granddad grew and deer that he shot. I was still able to have a place to lay my head, even though we did move around a lot when I was little and lived in government housing some of my life. I still had clothes. I was still well taken care of. In Psalms 37 verse 25, the Palmist declares this “ I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread”. God is faithful to His word, yall. We don’t know how we made it but bless God that we did. That is exactly what I am talking about. God has NEVER forsaken us, and HE NEVER will. Hebrews 13:5

So, if we know these things, why do we continue to stress out about the past due light bill, or the late rent, and continue to harp God about the things He has already promised us, when there are people literally dying and going to HELL every day? When there are people who have yet to be touched by the Love of the Gospel? When there are people who fail to realize the return of Christ? Priorities beloved, priorities. What are we really spending our time praying about?

Now, am I saying that we are not supposed to pray for the things we need? No, I'm not saying that. But what I am saying is this: examine what it is you are spending your time praying on, and line it up with the Word of God. I mean if you are going to pester God about something, pester Him about the condition of the sinner’s soul, not your car note, or the delay in your “prince charming” ( If you cant say amen, ouch will be accepted).

God calls us to be ambassadors for Christ. 2 Corinthians 5:20 He calls us to stand in the gap, to make a plea on His behalf!  Are we really standing? Are we really doing what God has for us to do? Are we praying for others? Are we implementing the same mind that Christ had in ourselves? Philippians 2:5

So, I’m not really sure about you, but I would like to have the  type of faith to pray for someone else, instead of myself. I would like to do what God actually called me to do, and that is to stand in the gap and intercede for others! I want to be that light that Christ talks about in Matthew 5:14-16. Beloved, I make my appeal to you, as the body of Christ, lets stand and do what He actually has us here to do. Intercede yall, intercede. 

Peace, Love, and Joy

Candice Marie McGruder

-An Humble Servant of Christ

Some Kind of Wonderful???

There's a book out there called Lady in Waiting, a book on becoming a woman of God while waiting for Mr. Right.  One thing that stood out to me in this encouraging compilation was the subject of enabling.

en·abled en·abling

Full Definition of ENABLE

1

a :  to provide with the means or opportunity <training that enables people to earn a living>

b :  to make possible, practical, or easy <a deal that would enable passage of a new law>

c :  to cause to operate <software that enables the keyboard>

2

:  to give legal power, capacity, or sanction to <a law enabling admission of a state> 

What we are focusing on here is definition b: to make possible, practical or easy.

Why was this in a book about singleness? Well, watch this clip from the popular movie He's Just Not That Into You. The short haired woman is Gigi and the long haired woman is Janine.

Immediately after they hug Janine invites Gigi to look up places for a WEDDING! A stinking WEDDING! The guy has showed no interest in her besides these "signs" they claim to have seen.

Think about it. Do either of these women sound like someone you know? Maybe a close friend, family member or maybe even your mother?

Which one reminds you most of you?

And we Christian women are the WORST. Lol. Especially in this whole "that's my future husband" business. We are no less thirsty than we were beforehand except now we will dive into the covenant of marriage in our hearts quick because that's more "holy."

A lot of times in our walk with God we as single women are doing our very best to stay focused on pursuing and loving Jesus with all our hearts and that's when the enemy comes along with what we call a random. A random is someone who you KNOW God did not call you to be with but you date or "court" them anyway because of whatever reason. The enemy sends randoms to distract us, and sometimes he will even use our friend's harmless optimistic attitudes to aid in the process.

This harmless optimistic attitude would be that of your enabler. A friend of yours that you call when you meet a cute guy because you KNOW that whatever you say you saw, felt, or heard she will agree with you. She will encourage you to text him, talk with him. She will sit with you for hours and pick apart the conversation to look for clues that he is in fact madly in love with you. She will help you convince yourself that he is the one and the Lord will do it and to keep on praying and believing. And yes that dream means this and yes that look meant that. And I have to laugh because your sweet friend is just being herself: sweet, supportive, and on your team!

It's true she loves you! It's true she would do nothing to hurt you in a million years! And it's true that she has helped you into more trouble than anyone else because she upheld your emotions and not your God. And I've been there. I've been on both sides of this coin, and neither side is pretty. Most of my friends enabled me through life helping me believe that I would be next. Helping me believe that this is the one. Helping me see that he said one thing but really meant another. That is not cute!

I have learned my lesson! I'm not writing this post to dog your BFFL for enabling you. I'm writing this post for the enabler in all of us women who truly believe in love. I'm writing to remind us all to STOP dead in our tracks and PRAY before we agree to anything else, read anymore text messages, or listen to or participate in anymore over analyzing. Truth is, we don't know anything. Lol. Truth is, our friend wants someone to listen to her and we are so good at that. That's why we're friends. But at the end of the day she needs to be reminded that God is her source. That if this is the man for her God will give her clear direction.

So, please, be a good friend and a great sister in Christ and point your sister, lovingly, to Jesus and not to a man. As fun as it is as girls to gush about a guy with our friends, please save the gushing until it actually happens. Help your sister guard her heart and do not awaken love WAY before its time.

Try something different. When she calls or texts, say, let's pray! Cause girl you KNOW I'm no help in a situation like this; but God is help in all situations! If you know that man is not for her by prompting of the Holy Spirit tell her! Be led by God, not by the moment. Push her toward Jesus, not towards could be's and would be's. 

Let's stop enabling one another and stay FOCUSED.

Leave. Me. Alone. No, really. A-LONE. By Myself.

 

I've got something to say.

Today I was watching a syndicated talk show, The Real. This show has five hostesses. One is completely single, three are married, one is in a long term relationship. Loni, the single woman, read a letter from a fan today that was my LIFE in their segment called "Girl Chat."

Here's the link to the video. It's about 3 minutes if you want to watch it.

The letter from the fan talked about how she is single and perfectly fine with it; but around the holidays especially, all of her friends and family stay trying to hook her up with EVERYBODY and she is just sick of it.

Loni completely agrees with the woman, because she is a single woman who enjoys her single life and doesn't see herself being married any time soon. The other women on the panel however, seem to have a hard time understanding why she is so content.

How many of us live this EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! It's like everyone in the world wants to remind you that you're single! No matter what you are doing with your life or what you've accomplished people continuously fight for you to believe that things truly aren't complete without a mate.

"Oh I have a Master's Degree!" "That's great! When are you getting married, girl?!"
 *side eye*

"Oh I just planted my first church!"
"Wow! Congrats! That's amazing! When you gon' get a first lady thought?!"
 *siiiiiiddddeee EYE*

"Hey! I just indicted Darren Wilson!!!"
"Oh, for real? That's amazing! When you getting a man, tho?"

For real? It's seriously like that when you're single in this world! And I'm like, bro, CHIIIILLLL!!! I am FINE!!! No, I wasn't lonely until you told me I should be! I wasn't thinking about no man until you reminded me that I don't have one!

So this is a crying out to all you happy relationship people, over zealous parents, nosy co-workers, and braggy older siblings: LEAVE US ALONE!!!

Let me tell you a story, if you didn't notice, there is a lot of work to be done in this world. Souls need saving, rights need to be fought for, justice needs to be served, and the gospel needs to preached. Therefore, if I'm about my Father's business, I am in His will. If I am in His will, then He will make my paths straight. And if a beautiful 6'2' black man who loves the Lord and hates injustice is in that straight path and God sees fit for us to become one, I guarantee God is ABLE! But, tell me WHY, I'm preaching to YOU about MY single season? Please, in the most respectful way, GET SOME BUSINESS! We ALL need to be busy doing God's work because we are His ambassadors sent to reconcile people to Him. God needs single people whose hearts aren't divided yet! (1 Cor 7)

Dear Grandma, Mama, Uncle Ray Ray, Aunt Billie Jean, random girl at work, we love you, we truly truly do; but please, for the sake of our contentment, leave. us. alone. We like to be left alone. We want it to be just us and Jesus. (For now) And there is nothing WRONG with being ALONE!!!

Jesus quite often left the crowd to be alone.

Paul preached the gospel for three years alone before he met up with other apostles. Not to mention he was single his entire life.

It is true that most of us are called to marriage. It is also true that God is taking us through different seasons and preparations for marriage. And it's also true that not everything is about marriage! Can I just be alone? Pay my own rent? Wash my own dishes that I bought? Go home and feed nobody but myself? Let me enjoy it! Find something else to complain about and leave me alone!

Most of us want to get married one day, but why is our contentment in this single season so upsetting to you when the Bible tells us to be content! I'm trying to not awaken love until it's time. I'm trying to leave holy. And the best way you can help me is to leave me alone. Talk about anything else, but that.

Thank you.
Sincerely,
A Frustrated, Content Single Person

Is God your Source or your Last Resort?

A lot of us who are Christians fail to take inventory of what's going on inside of us. We get so caught up in routine and just life that we don't sit before JESUS and allow Him to transform is DAILY. Yes, DAILY. 

See. Some of us thought that once we got saved the transforming was over. But no. This is a day by day thing until we meet Jesus face to face.

So when was the last time you did something differently? When was the last time you allowed the Holy Spirit to correct you?

This is what we are going to do today. We are going to examine our actions to see if we truly are living like Jesus intended. No, we aren't perfect. And no, we won't get it all right. But, yes, we will intentionally say NO to ungodliness and pursue Jesus. 

So I wanna know this: do you go to God on every decision? Do you seek Him at every turn? Do you consult the Word when you are confronted with a situation? Is JESUS the VERY EPICENTER of your being? Does He HOLD you TOGETHER? If not, who does? If you don't go to the Word when someone makes you mad, who or what do you consult? If when making a decision on who to date or what job to take you don't seek God's plan, whose plan are you seeking? Your mothers? Your own? The worlds idea of what your life should be like? When you get into it with your husband who are you inquiring of about your marriage? About your children? Who do you act like when you have a bad day? The old you? Or Jesus? 

These are all questions I ask because David asked them. He said search my heart, O God! See if there be ANY offensive way in me! And LEAD me in the way of the EVERLASTING! (Psalm 139) (And yes Psalm 139 talks about more than how fearfully and wonderfully made you are!!!!)

Too many of us are going in the way of the short term fix. We want it quick and dirty. We don't prefer the way of everlasting because it requires too much of us! But we must seek and go in the way of the Lord. You call yourself His daughter, His son, right? Then act like it. 

We need to re-center. Reposition ourselves. We have gotten too comfortable doing things the worlds way again. It's time to reel it back in. Get the slack out of our line to the voice of God and seek and obey Him at every turn.

So take inventory today. Get out a piece of paper or a journal and THINK. For once stop just reacting to everything around you! Your instincts are not the way God desires to handle everything. Stick to the Word for guidance and the Holy Spirit for counsel. Let God be your SOURCE and don't just go to Him when you're in trouble. Don't wait until you're in trouble! Go to Him NOW. Right now!

The song says, He's waiting on you. He knows just what to do.

A Good Man is Hard to Find???

Let me tell you a story...

I was at church yesterday and the Exhorter preached from Proverbs 31:10. As long as I've been a woman I've heard this scripture preached to me.

"You are worth MORE than rubies!"
"Know your worth!"
"Live like you are worth more than rubies!"

And that is a very valuable message.

But what caught my attention yesterday, and I believe for the very first time, was the beginning of that verse.

Who can find a virtuous woman?

The preacher said that men are looking for virtuous women. GOD is looking for virtuous women!

And I thought, Hmmmm. We always complaining saying 'a good man is hard to find' but the Bible says a good WOMAN is hard to find!'

So, let me say this, women are constantly complaining that they cannot find a good man. Well I know why. BECAUSE YOU AIN'T A GOOD WOMAN!!!

First of all, if you were that virtuous woman you would understand that it is not your job to look but to be found.

I've said it once and I'll say it again, since WHEN have you EVA, EVA, yes, EVAAAAA, read or heard about the TREASURE uncovering itself and going to find the pirate?!! You haven't. And you won't. Because when something is valuable, people will come looking for it! STAY COVERED!!! The Bible says that the life we once lived is HIDDEN in Christ! (Col 3) Some of y'all trying to come out of hiding far too soon. My admonishment to you is to stay HIDDEN in Christ, because, honey, you look much better covered in His blood than you ever will flashing your broken self.

Second of all, you and me and the rest are so worried about what kind of man we need in order to not get hurt again that we refuse to see our flaws. We focus so much on the "I'm worth more than rubies" that we stay spiritually and mentally immature. We steady engaging in gossip and drama. We so worried about getting a man that when we do we will have no idea how to KEEP HIM!!! All that drama, nagging, gossip, and childish jealousy will run that man crazy. The way you acting now will bring hell into that marriage you praying so hard for. Yes, know your worth, but act like it! As Exhorter Jones said yesterday, we have to learn to operate FAR ABOVE because that is what we are worth.

Third of all, like a gold ring in a pig's snout is a beautiful woman who shows no discretion. It is so important to dialogue about discretion in this time. During this new feminist movement, women everywhere are louder and looser than ever. And I say that to our shame. We begging God for a man forgetting than when we get him we are commanded to submit to him but refuse to practice submission and class now. We are to be a CROWN on our husband's head. Who wants to wear a loud, audacious crown? Or a crown that is easily lusted after because of it's flashiness? We need to learn to be classy women who will compliment our husbands and future husbands, not overtake them with our "personality."

Let me tell you something, I am loud. My personality is overly friendly, sarcastic, and doesn't mind attention. My personality does not exempt me from pursuing a gentle and quiet spirit. But that's a different blog. All I'm saying is act like you got some sense. Stop constantly talking over people, interrupting them, eating with your mouth wide open. Cross your legs, cover up, stop telling your business to everybody and, for the sake of the gospel, stop telling everybody else's business too! Be DISCREET or your beauty will look real ugly.

The point of this blog is for us to realize the truth. The Bible doesn't say a good man is hard to find. It says a good woman is hard to find. But oh when she is found!!! She brings favor to those who are blessed by her relationship. So, ladies, let us focus on being healed, getting whole and submitting to the Holy Spirit so that we can be those virtuous women that God is searching for to advance His kingdom and that men are looking for to complete their potential.

The True Injustice

There's a lot going on in our world. When I heard the prosecutor announce that there was no probable cause for the indictment of an officer who shot an unarmed man 6 times, a lot of emotions circled me.

I often have a lot to say about racism in America, the denial that it still exists, and the injustice often served to people of color across this country, and the world.

However, I asked the Lord what I should do with my frustrations. He said, of course, to bring them to Him. When I did, here is what I discovered.

A majority of us believe that justice was not served today. I didn't see all the evidence up close, and I don't know that I could be trusted to make a non-biased opinion if I did. But still, even if one of those shots was justified, surely the other 5 were not.

What struck me is that maybe Mike Brown didn't know Jesus. I don't know him at all, but what if he didn't? What if he never heard the true gospel? What if people petted him his whole life and fooled him into thinking he had at least 10 more years to "get his life right" and come to Jesus? That is the real injustice.

The real injustice is that WE are dying everyday. By we, I mean US, THIS GENERATION! You, me, our peers, friends, cousins, classmates. Mike was 18 years old when he was gunned down. Cancer is the second leading cause of death for children. We are dying everyday! If not at the hand of the white supremacist it's at the hand of an extra line of cocaine or even at the end of the barrel of our own gun.

Yet and still we don't give two crumbs at the bottom of a cracker box about where we will spend eternity. We holler YOLO and keep on living a life of HELL procrastinating repentance when we have no idea if we will make it to the next day, the next week, the next year. Then we stand in the street and riot about a brother "gone too soon." This should be a wake up call that we ain't but that far from being "gone too soon" ourselves! Instead of acting a fool we should be running to the cross that our grandmothers sang about!!!

Holiness is urgent. Salvation is current. And repentance can no longer be delayed.

It is time out for trying to be cute and politically correct with the gospel. Preach the truth in and out of season. When it's popular and when it's rejected. When it's easy and when it's difficult. When you feel like it, and my God, even when you do not! They say friends don't let friends die without hearing the gospel!

The Lord also spoke to me this: DO NOT BE DECEIVED!!! Do you NOT see the diversion of the devil?! He is out to divert our attention from the real problem. Which is sin. The problem with the justice system is not racism, it's that it's ran by humans! People who are sinful at the core like me and you but probably refuse to believe it. The only perfect justice is that of Jesus Christ.

We are all that officer. We committed horrible crime; but not against anyone here on earth. We committed horrible crime against the One, True Living God. We have all sinned against a holy God. And we were indicted, arraigned, and convicted. Sentenced to eternal separation from the very God we sinned against.

And justice was served.

But not on us. 

No. We did not receive our just reward. We did not get what we DESERVED even though we so quickly demand the blood of a policeman or of anyone who we think did us wrong! We want him and our father who left us and our family member who molested us and our coworker who gets on our everlasting nerves ALL to PAY!!! But WE WALK FREE!!!

Because God sought justice through the blood of His very own Son rather than commit us all to an eternity in hell. You are quick to yell and scream and shout "Thank You Jesus! Your blood has set me free!" and in the same breath throw another man no worse than you to the wolves.

We are just as full of hatred as any racist when we refuse to remember that Jesus died for their sins too! We are not the only ones who get to walk free!

So, please, be compassionate and forgiving, because, even though it's hard and it seems wrong, God does that for us every single day.

And please, do not delay. Be quick to repent and return to God because you never know when you will meet your gunman.

Break Through that Mountain

Do you ever feel like you keep going around the same mountain? That you're living this Christian life from breakthrough to breakthrough? Maybe you just feel plain defeated, like this whole Jesus thing isn't really going ANYwhere.

Every time you turn around it's something else! Or maybe it's the same thing.

I've felt that way too. 

But what I realized not that long ago from a post on IG is that while I was crying "Jesus! More of You less of me!!!" He was crying the something quite similar: "Ventura!!! More of you! I already gave you ALL of ME!"

So the way to move your mountain isn't MORE JESUS. You have ALL of Him. The way to move your mountain is to give Him more of YOU! EVERYTHING!

You go to church and you sing "I surrender aaallll!!!" And "I give myself awaaaaayyyyy!!!!" And even "NOT MY WILL BUT YOURS, LORD!" But EVERY time there is an opportunity outside the walls of corporate worship to choose His will above yours, you FLAKE!

Hmm. Did that sting a little? Make you cringe? Feel like a punch in the gut? Yeah. That's called conviction. And you haven't felt it in a while. Or maybe you've felt its evil cousin condemnation. There is a difference. 

Conviction is a means to an end. It is the tugging of the Holy Spirit to ignite change in your life. It is a Godly sorrow that leads to repentance. 

Condemnation is a passing of judgement. A decision that what you did is unredeemable and beyond forgiveness.

The Holy Spirit convicts. Our enemy, satan, condemns.

So if you are feeling condemned go read Romans 8. 

If you are feeling convicted go read Romans 6.

We have to get away from this feel good Christianity. It's not gonna always feeeeeellll good when you are presenting your members as instruments of righteousness. Especially since they are used to being used for unrighteousness. 

For example. Say you grew up

In England where the driver is on the right side instead of the left. You learned to drive there and did so for about 20 years. Fast forward to today. You're older and you've never driven from a left side drivers seat in your life. But now you've moved to America for a new job and that's the way it is. And for you it's extra awkward, uncomfortable and even frustrating at times because everything is backwards. You have to learn new traffic signals and speed limits. All while commuting to your new job who didn't find it beneficial to give you an easy work load for your transition. Now you have to learn to shift gears and do turn signals with opposite hands than you're already auto tuned to. Sometimes you feel like an idiot and that you have to learn to drive all over again. You have to reposition your members to do the same things but in a different order and a different way. 

Now you wouldn't think it strange to give that guy some grace if you were carpooling with him. But you would want him to learn eventually to do it right. And the only way he could is if he practiced, maybe he will relearn in a lot fewer than 20 years, but still it takes work. 

But when it comes to this Christian walk we have a different standard. We expect God to do some magic trick on us. Or conduct our every move away from sin. That is not the case, dear ones. 

We are given a new heart. All things are made clean and new in us when we are born again. But repentance isn't a one time thing. We must continually and consistently turn away from sin. The difference in a sinner and a saint is a sinner pursues sin and a saint pursues righteousness. 

So you keep going around the same mountain because while your heart has changed your pursuit hasn't shifted in that certain area. 

Instead of pursuing God when your money is funny, you pursue more hours at work or tell your boss "I mean I can miss one Sunday of church." Or think to yourself I need these tithe money now. You think yourself out of the situation instead of pursing the word of God on the topic. 

Or maybe when you are emotional instead of seeking God or looking for a righteous way to deal with your emotions you go to your safe place. Maybe that's venting to your friends, or lashing out on social media. Or maybe that's dipping back to your ex or turning on a little pornography. Sex relieves stress after all, right? 

What about when someone at work or home makes you mad? I mean just steps on your toes and gets you heated. Do you run to the word that says a soft answer turns away wrath or do you jump to gossip about that person or go off on them immediately?

Do you have the tendency of laying your new life aside when circumstances come to shake you up? 

Listen, honey, you will never be victorious if you keep on presenting the members of your body (your mouth, your mind, your legs) for unrighteousness. CONTROL YOURSELF and pick up the Bible! You know. That book you couldn't get enough of when you first found Jesus that now sits in your car waiting for Sunday morning to roll around?!

There are a couple of common themes in Jesus' ministry. For one, the word often says "He had compassion on them so he healed them." Before Jesus healed on several accounts compassion preceded the miracle. So you must know that Jesus indeed loves you. He feels a deep passion concerning His people and seeing them set free, healed, delivered. 

Second, when Jesus healed people before and after He made sure they knew to go and sin no more. He actually told one guy who He saw a week after He healed him to stop sinning or something worse would happen to him! Jesus took holiness just as serious as He took our breakthroughs. 

So, I urge you, let your next break through be the last of that chapter. Stop going around the same mountain. Pass the test. Surrender that area to Jesus. Stop pursuing sin and present your members as agents of righteousness. Take ACTION concerning your walk with God. You have faith, now put it to work. Put yourself to work. Get free, test out of the minor league so that God can use you!!! ALL of you!